Can I be honest with you? I feel a little lost. This is the side of 75 Hard no one really talks about. You’re coming off the high of having completed 75 days straight of the toughest mental challenge out there straight into the unknown. At least that’s where I’m at. Little man is and has been really sick. Our trip back to Wisconsin for the holidays did not go as planned because if it. Plus the loss of Justin’s Grandma on Christmas Eve. I could go on. I had this same feeling when I completed the challenge the first time and you’d think I would’ve learned my lesson and planned accordingly but I didn’t. Mistakes were made and life just didn’t allow for it.
So here I am feeling doubtful, unsure, scared. Can I maintain all the progress I’ve made? Can I continue to build upon these new habits without the structure of the challenge? What should my next adventure be? Hell I’m even struggling to land on my word of intention for the New Year! That’s normally something I have down months leading up to January 1st.
I promise to always keep it real with you and right now I feel a little bit like I’m drowning. Looking at it from the outside in I can totally see how this might all sound silly. But in my mind right now it’s a struggle. I’m gonna take this week to unplug a little bit. To re-group. Re-focus. And to just breathe. My comeback is gonna be amazing! I just don’t quite know what that’s gonna look like yet. Be sure to keep an eye out…final transformation and deets coming at ya tomorrow!
Today I dedicate my day to myself. You did it Ang! I hope you’re proud of yourself. Because your past self that’s writing this is super proud of you. This past year is one you will never forget but wish you could. Each and every time life tried to beat you down you got up and kept going. In the toughest year of your entire life you completed the toughest challenge out there. Now it’s time to pick your next adventure! Keep going. You’ve got this! Day 75 is on the books! 0 days to go! Transformation reveal coming soon!!! ♠️💀❤️
My word of intention for 2021 was GROWTH. As I reflect back on my year I am so incredibly proud of how far I have come and all the growth I experienced this past year. And in all that growth I found a strength inside me that I never knew existed. Where before my vulnerability would consume me; my anxiety, my life, my everything, it has now become my superpower. I’ve shared a lot with you all this past year. I’ve showed up even when shit got hard. REAL HARD! I have put in the work on myself mentally, physically and spiritually and continue to do so every single day.
If I had not gone into this past year determined AF to grow and to push myself outside my comfort zone I would not have survived the year. Old habits are hard to break but I broke them just in time for the shit to hit the fan. Now I am far from perfect and will never claim to be but simply being able to recognize triggers that would normally lead to destructive behavior and disorder eating is a HUGE win in my book. And let’s take a moment to celebrate the fact that I have FINALLY learned to ask for help when I need it rather than feeling the weight of the world on my shoulders and crumbling under all the pressure. I’ve said it many many times throughout the year and I will continue to say it because I believe it with all my heart…you simply MUST commit to yourself and your health first in order to give the very best version of you to others. Period! It’s not selfish to do so it’s necessary.
This past year was one of the most difficult years of my life filled with a LOT of loss. I’m definitely still drowning in all that grief but know with time those wounds will heal. I’m just not there yet. It still hurts just as bad as the day they each left. But the funny thing is despite all that loss my faith is stronger than ever before. My marriage is stronger than ever before. My relationships are stronger than ever before. My friendships are stronger than ever before. It started with growth and led to strength. So despite me wanting to curse 2021 for eternity I thank the year instead. Thank you 2021 for forcing me to find a strength within that I never knew I possessed. It’s with that new found strength that I go into 2022 with my word for the new year. Be sure to stay tuned for what my next adventure will be.
Today I dedicate my day to my Grandma Stommel. Your sweet moments with Hunter and the little secrets you’d whisper in his ear are what I remember most and will forever cherish. I miss you dearly. Day 74 is on the books! Only 1 more day to go! ♠️💀❤️
Today I dedicate my day to my Grandpa. The one from whom I get my giant smile. I can still hear your voice singing The Little Green Frog and Poor Old Michael Finningan. I hope and pray every single day that I don’t forget your voice. Those songs will forever live on in Hunter.
I can’t wait to make your Christmas cookies after this challenge is over. Day 73 is on the books! Only 2 more days to go! ♠️💀❤️
Today I dedicate my day to my beautiful fur baby Athena. You greeted me daily with your smile and butt wiggles for 13 wonderful years. The day I took you home I thought I was saving you. But you my sweet girl were the one who saved me. At many moments in my life you were all I had. You got me through some of the darkest times of my life. I love you and I miss you dearly. Day 72 is on the books! Only 3 more days to go! ♠️💀❤️
Today I dedicate my day to my Father in Law. God truly blessed me with the very best. I could listen to your stories for hours. From our conversations about God and life to the devotions and scriptures you would send to me especially in moments when I was struggling most will forever hold a special place in my heart. Our time together was so special and will never ever be forgotten. I love you and miss you dearly. Day 71 is on the books! Only 4 more days to go! ♠️💀❤️
I woke up this morning super homesick and unmotivated. I can’t even find the words to express what I feel on the inside. My emotions are all over the place and my entire system is in shock. I feel like at any moment I am going to be physically ill. So I’ve decided to dedicate each of these last few days of this challenge to someone in order to keep me pushing forward. Because my drive and my desire to complete it for me alone just isn’t there.
So today I dedicate my day to my husband Justin and my son Hunter. Your unfailing love and support of me and my goals means the absolute world to me. You both push me to be better and do better. Neither of you have ever questioned me taking care of myself first ever! Matter of fact you both encourage it. If I’m falling behind in my day you either jump in and join me or pick up the slack. I love you both so very much. Day 70 is on the books! Only 5 more days to go! ♠️💀❤️
Today was a hard day and a very emotional day. I didn’t even want to get out of bed this morning. Today would normally be the day we spend Christmas with my Father in Law. I sulked for a while but realized he wouldn’t want me to waste the day or fail this challenge. So I got out of bed and got my butt in gear. I’m glad I got it all in when I did because not too long afterward we got the call that Justin’s Grandma passed away. I guess Dad needed his Mom up in heaven with him for Christmas. Please keep my family in your prayers. Day 68 is on the books! Only 7 more days to go! ♠️💀❤️