This kid I tell ya! We are at such a tough stage right now. He knows exactly how to push my buttons, test my patience and frustrate me to no end. And if you ask him he’d say the exact same thing about me. We are water and ice. Oil and vinegar. I have officially been demoted from Mom to #bruh. I’ve been “bro-zoned”. I am uncool and irritating.
I knew this day would come but I did NOT expect to be dealing with a 16 year old attitude in a 6 year old little body. But Hunter is absolutely STOKED! No lie! If you’ve been a witness to his “deeper voice” then you know exactly what I’m talking about. Hell, the other day he was over the moon to show me the hair coming in on his legs!
My Momma heart is hurting but is so damn full all at the same time. This parenting thing is tough AF man. But it’s the most fulfilling job I have ever had. I wouldn’t trade it for a thing!
It’s your “day one”. The pantry and fridge have been cleaned out and your grocery haul is up next. So where do you begin???
When you’re just starting out trying to eat better I am ALL FOR splurging on convenience items. Items you know are going to keep you on track regardless of what life throws your way on any given day. Pre-packaged, pre-cut, pre-cooked, individual serving sizes. You know, the kind of stuff you don’t even have to think about. Whether it’s a crazy busy day and you’ve gone far too long since last eating or you’re in a grab-and-go situation that may lead to bad food choices; focusing on convenience will make all the difference in the world when trying to avoid that end of day binge or quick run through the drive thru.
Pre-cooked, pre-cut protein options are a MUST. They can be used as a stand alone item or as an add-in to any meal any time of day. I’m a HUGE fan of pre-cooked, chopped and frozen chicken breast. Be sure to grab some eggs and cottage cheese too. It’s the fastest, easiest way to boost your protein intake. With pre-packaged salad kits the possibilities are ENDLESS…eat alone as a full meal, as a side to a meal or as a wrap! So good to have on hand. Finally, I always grab a healthy amount of fresh fruit and vegetable options for the week. Apples, individual servings of avocado or hummus and little veggie snack packs are PERFECT for grabbing on your way out the door. Don’t over complicate it babes. Make it so stupid easy you can’t fail.
You guys have been BEGGING me for this and I can finally say that I have PERFECTED the recipe and the process. So here it is…my coveted Fire Water recipe!!! Benefits include, less bloat, less inflammation, a natural boost of energy without the caffeine, it helps to curb cravings, helps boost your immune system and jump starts your metabolism.
1/2 cup Ginger Root
1/2 cup Tumeric Root
1/4 cup Apple Cider Vinegar
x6 Lemons Juiced
1 tsp Cayenne Pepper
1/2 tsp Himalayan Salt
1/2 tsp Black Pepper
1/2 tsp Baking Soda
Simply place all the ingredients above into a blender and mix well. Strain the blend into a cup. Pour x1 oz into twelve 8oz bottles. Top each bottle off with 3/4 cup of water and store in the fridge. Drink first thing in the morning before ANYTHING else. You may substitute the Ginger Root and Turmeric Root for 1 tsp each of ground spices. Be sure to tag me if you give this recipe a try and let me know what you think! Cheers to better digestion and gut health!
Today was one of Hunter’s favorite days…it was a “YES DAY”!!! These days don’t happen often but when they do it’s a pretty big deal. What’s a “YES DAY”???
This is how we do it:
1️⃣ We agree on a store to shop at.
2️⃣ Hunter has 10 minutes to shop.
3️⃣ Anything in the store is fair game. All items are an automatic yes.
He may get ANYTHING he wants BUT…
4️⃣ He must be able to carry all the items himself.
5️⃣ He is responsible for checking out all by himself.
Today we went the Dollar Tree and let me tell you, some of the items he picked were a little bizarre, some were cute and some were super duper sweet. He got really creative this time too. When it came to carrying his things he headed to the gift bag section first to have bags to fill for easier carrying. His total came to $23.09 and included things like a toothbrush, toothpaste and his own deodorant, a lei and flip flops for Mommy, a card for Daddy and a bright blue glittery star to go by Grandpa’s photo and flag. I’m most impressed and extremely proud that given the option to get anything he wanted that he thought of others.
Have you ever done a “YES DAY” with your kiddo??? If you haven’t I would highly recommend giving it a try! It’s a pretty special experience and you might be surprised at some of the things your child picks out and why. If you do happen to do your own “YES DAY” be sure and tag us!
If you’ve been following along on stories then you know that today has been a rough day. Matter of fact the week so far has been difficult. We are going through an adjustment period with Justin’s new job and Hunter’s behavior has taken a nose dive as a result. It’s so hard to make every day a great one when things are seemingly spiraling out of control. It’s ok to cry about it. Lord knows I did! But don’t throw in the towel on the entire day. You have the power to turn things around even if you don’t quite know how to do that.
I don’t know how best to address Hunter’s behavior sometimes but I’m sure as shit not gonna give up on him or let the behavior slide. Sometimes we have it all figured out and sometimes we figure it out as we go along. But I will always do my very best and that starts with never ever giving up on my day because of a difficult moment in time. Aim to make every day a great one regardless of the curve balls. Even if it doesn’t work out the way you hoped or intended I promise you will never regret trying.
I was trying to think of something profound or poetic to share but the truth is nothing creative is coming to me. I’m just sad. And it’s truly difficult some days to simply get out of bed. These days don’t come often but they have now come back to back weeks. When you ask me what’s wrong I cry harder because I just don’t know! Or maybe I do know but the thought of telling the truth sounds so dumb.
But the truth is I’m still grieving. Some days it’s triggered by little things like dropping popcorn on the floor and calling for Athena out of habit. And some days; like today, it’s seemingly brought on by nothing at all. There are days I will miss my Father in Law and then feel guilty because I should be missing my Grandpa, Athena, Justin’s Grandma and Aunt just the same. Then I feel even more sad for not grieving each of them the same. I carry guilt for still grieving when others are not. The snow ball grows and the cycle continues.
I know in time I will be ok. And I am putting in the work to ensure that does happen. I just didn’t expect that it would take this much time. In my Bible study last week my dear friend had shared with me that things will never be the same and that hit me right in the gut. Nothing IS ever going to be the same! And I AM still holding on to all the things that my future holds that I won’t be able to share with these people.
I fucking miss each and every one of them so much. And as if the grief weren’t enough I also have new anxieties and fears surrounding my family that still lives. It’s a struggle and one that I’m so over dealing with. But the reality is that this is my new normal. And I DO have to live each day going forward without them. If a single one of them were still here they would tell me to live by my word and get out of bed and make every single day a great day. So for now I’ll cry. But just know that through the tears I’m determined to make it a great day. If I can do it you can too! If you’re struggling also please know you are not crazy, or wrong or alone. I see you. Drop a ❤️ below if any of this spoke to you.
I’m just walking around holding back tears today and it sucks. There has been so much fun and so much excitement this whole week there truly is no need for it and seemingly no cause. I’m literally sobbing as I type this. I’ve also been super snappy with Hunter today and the guilt of that alone is weighing heavy on my heart. It’s so crazy how life can be so joyful one minute then grief says “I think the f*ck not!” And just slams your ass back down again.
Its not lost on me that I’ve been asking God for a good cry. Actually I’ve been begging for it. It could have been any day in the past six months and I was ready for it! But now? Really? With friends in town and with all the fun stuff we’ve been up to? Now? Now is when the tears are gonna finally fall? Grief is such a b*tch and I would never wish it on my worst enemy. So I’m gonna go bawl my eyes out for a minute then continue on with my day. Because I’ve got things to do, places to go and people to see. If you’ve ever had a day like this please know you’re not alone. I certainly hope I’m not.
There was a time in my life that I would never pass up a milkshake. But I’d have to be certain it was always in front of others so no one would ever suspect anything was off. Then in private, the things I would do and justified doing because no one would ever know were horrendous. But I still knew. And that guilt would reset the cycle all over again time after time. I was drowning and no one knew it. Food RULED my world.
When I became a Mom I realized VERY quickly that our children see and hear literally EVERYTHING. Even the things we thought we got away with, we really didn’t. They are like sponges; soaking everything up. Right down to how we eat. I did not want the same horrendous relationship with food for Hunter. And I knew in order to set the very best example I had to BE that example first. I had to face my food demons and really start working on my own relationship with food.
I am far from perfect but the important thing is that I am making a dedicated effort to do better. And that starts with things like a surprise lunch dates for milkshakes with ZERO guilt and ZERO plans to self-sabotage afterwards. Because sometimes life is about eating dessert first and making those memories in moments that are so fleeting. I have to remember that one milkshake ISN’T gonna make me FAT just like one workout ISN’T gonna make me SKINNY. But a milkshake with my favorite little guy ever IS going to create memories that WILL last a lifetime.
Can I be honest with you? I feel a little lost. This is the side of 75 Hard no one really talks about. You’re coming off the high of having completed 75 days straight of the toughest mental challenge out there straight into the unknown. At least that’s where I’m at. Little man is and has been really sick. Our trip back to Wisconsin for the holidays did not go as planned because if it. Plus the loss of Justin’s Grandma on Christmas Eve. I could go on. I had this same feeling when I completed the challenge the first time and you’d think I would’ve learned my lesson and planned accordingly but I didn’t. Mistakes were made and life just didn’t allow for it.
So here I am feeling doubtful, unsure, scared. Can I maintain all the progress I’ve made? Can I continue to build upon these new habits without the structure of the challenge? What should my next adventure be? Hell I’m even struggling to land on my word of intention for the New Year! That’s normally something I have down months leading up to January 1st.
I promise to always keep it real with you and right now I feel a little bit like I’m drowning. Looking at it from the outside in I can totally see how this might all sound silly. But in my mind right now it’s a struggle. I’m gonna take this week to unplug a little bit. To re-group. Re-focus. And to just breathe. My comeback is gonna be amazing! I just don’t quite know what that’s gonna look like yet. Be sure to keep an eye out…final transformation and deets coming at ya tomorrow!
Today I dedicate my day to myself. You did it Ang! I hope you’re proud of yourself. Because your past self that’s writing this is super proud of you. This past year is one you will never forget but wish you could. Each and every time life tried to beat you down you got up and kept going. In the toughest year of your entire life you completed the toughest challenge out there. Now it’s time to pick your next adventure! Keep going. You’ve got this! Day 75 is on the books! 0 days to go! Transformation reveal coming soon!!! ♠️💀❤️