When I first started on my health and fitness journey three and a half years ago I DESPERATELY wanted to be physically capable of doing ALL the things with Hunter. But deep down inside I just wanted to be skinny. I prayed so hard to God to just let me get skinny ONE MORE TIME and I promised Him if He gave me the chance I would not waste it. Little did I know at the time that answered prayers don’t come without a shit ton of work. Like, duh Ang!
Only He knew that after a lifetime of struggling with eating disorders and body dysmorphia and self sabotage that in order for my prayer to be answered just one more time that I would need to put in the hardest work of my life and that this time it needed to be done the right way. The healthy way. Even if that meant it took me the longer way. No restricting, no binging, no purging, no self sabotage. Just good old fashioned put your head down and grind. Apply what I know and what I’ve learned to get the best results in the healthiest way. Period.
The workouts were always the easy part for me. I truly LOVE being active and always have. But it was the food part that was hard. REALLY REALLY HARD. Food was my crutch, my comfort and my worst enemy. My relationship with food today is better but far from perfect. I am overcoming some MASSIVE obstacles for the first time in my entire life without that crutch and without the self-sabotage mentality. It’s not easy but it is absolutely worth it. So while it started with a plea to get skinny it ends with food freedom that I now get to pass on through generations.
